How are you doing? This is actually a rewrite of my previous blurb where I was seeking to establish casual friendships and nothing more. However, I've come to realize that such an attitude has actually deprived me of a richer experience of life-who knows, my soulmate may have passed me by. I've since had an awakening. Previously I've avoided a deeper emotional entanglement not out of fear of intimacy but more of an overabundance of caution. Affairs of the heart as you know can be volatile and emotionally turbulent. That was not something that I was willing to contend with considering my circumstances.
No one survives extended incarceration unaffected by the experience. The degree to which we are affected depends on how well we have navigated the minefield. Surviving prison requires a steady hand-uninterrupted routine. You come to crave and actively seek out predictability. However this is a cop out position, it is taking the easy way out. We become stronger through exercise, heavy lifting strengthening muscles. There is no downside to being emotionally sound. Love not only fulfills us, but it strengthens our emotional muscles.
Coming to this realization has forced me to answer a fundamental question of my life, am I loving and being loved; am I allowing myself to be emotionally sound? The short and honest answer is that I haven't. This however is unacceptable! I refuse to any longer deprive myself of the wonderful possibilities that love has to offer.
I am here looking for a real and meaningful relationship that will be to love and long-term commitment. If you are open to this wonderful possibility please contact me at the address provided or at jpay.com where you can send me an email.
I look forward to hearing from you.
Anthony Brown # 464113/279884C
East Jersey State Prison
Lock Bag R
Rahway, NJ 07065 USA
Ad Start: 12-06-18