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Sex - Male
DOB - 05/25/72
Seeking - Women
Race - Puerto Rican
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Convicted Of - Gang Murder
Release Date - Serving a Life Sentence
To whomever it may concern:
I would like for you to know that my heart and soul goes into each and every thing that I approach. At this very moment as my words enter into your mind, my sole purpose hopefully is to reach into your being so that we can establish some form of communication. I sincerely want you to learn who I am, where I am and why I am so that we can hopefully meet on common ground, not allowing color, weight, age, religion any other set standards to become a wedge between good people.
To begin with I will give you a brief description of my physical self. I stand 5 feet 8 inches and weigh 180 pounds. I have somewhat broad shoulders and a slim waist. I support a shaved head: my eyes are hazel and a medium white complexion. On May 25th I turned 39 years of age. This is a recent picture of myself
Although I am not necessarily an excessively health-conscious person I have never indulged in the conception of drugs, smoking or drinking alcohol. You'll probably find that difficult to swallow (no pun intended) , actually my being in the good condition that I am can probably be attributed to those reasons especially.
As a child I grew up in a close-knit family environment, residing in the West Hollywood California area. There are three of us. I have two sisters: I am second to the youngest. I was born in Puerto Rico by a Puerto Rican mother and father. I hope that I'm not boring you. I'm trying my best to give you a glimpse of the man behind the pen. Anyway at the age of 17 I somehow stumbled into love, totally unaware of what I was getting myself into. At that point I was interested to the arena of street life. It was like running into a brick wall and there went my freedom an broken heart; and experience that will never fade even with time. At my young age I traveled to Puerto Rico, Canada, New York and Miami, FL. These are some of the other places I either resided or visited.
In April of 1991 I was arrested by the LAPD for gang related reasons. I was charged, found guilty and then sentenced to life in a California state prison. Are you still with me?
Are you finding it difficult, identifying with a convicted criminal as they call it? I pray not because as a man and a friend, I have much to offer in the ways that most men fall short. Allow me to point something out to you. I've done about 20 years of my sentence already. Prison life, especially in California, isn't easy: you have to be tough mentally and physically to survive in prison like I have all these years. You can be certain that I am well aware of the fact that I am in prison but I do not allow that to destroy me from finding that special friend, like in many cases, many just lie down and die, not just in here but also out there. It's a war zone everywhere but we must believe in ourselves.
I apologize for drifting off like that. So, tell me, how does one express his most intimate feelings on paper to someone he doesn't know, especially under these circumstances? My biggest problem is that the last several years I had to become a recluse in order to preserve any goodness that I possessed before being placed in such adverse surroundings. I so desperately want and need someone special, a special friend to share my life and emotions. There is so much more to me, so much love and understanding that is stored away inside of me, waiting to be bestowed on that special someone.
It's funny because I've always been an open and generous person with my heart and possessions. Laughter, teasing and joking are very much a part of my character. I enjoy all the normal things that a normal person enjoys. Prison has cornered me into keeping a close watch on my feelings. Let me share something with you that I miss more than anything. I will miss not being able to have the opportunity to create my very own family.
That's my high, spending all my time with my future friend. I love to love and pray that I get some in return. It's no fun if you're the only one that is giving love. That's what life is all about, love surpasses any and all life has to offer. Right?
Prison undoubtedly is a terrible place to be under any circumstances, but even so, I wed it to my advantage by restructuring some of my old habits. I'd surely learned to appreciate some of life's simplest gifts. God if I could only reach that special female friend before I leave this earth. I would do anything. That someone who is willing to live life to its fullest with me. Someone who is not afraid to take a chance. Someone who can share dreams, and then accomplish those dreams together. Someone who is open enough to grow close together as one, that in the midst of a crowded room of people, we could sense what each other is thinking just by making eye contact. Someone who is willing to go that extra mile when the tank reads empty.
Do you understand what I'm saying? Am I reaching you? Listen, I realize that life is a strange thing, and that's putting it simple. For all of my trials and tribulations for all of my ups and downs, my to's and fro's, I'm still baffled by the awesome twists and turns that life takes us on. Hell, one day you were soaring high in the sky and the next day you are laying face down in the mud! The more I learn, the more I realize how little I know. You go all your life being taught that up is up and down is down, then one day discover that neither exist.
Before I go, I would like to say that we all have had our encounters with life's disappointments. Some worse than others. Perhaps those scars are so deeply embedded that not even time will heal them. Yet we cannot exist without love and happiness. Food, oxygen and love is what we must have in order to live in any normal society. Yet, love is like the moth that is attracted by the candlelight. I'm somewhat like that moth. Mainly, because I'm compelled to be consumed by this thing we call love, and you......... What's your story?
Sincerely,
Rafael A Torres # J-34964
KVSP D-2-119
P O Box 5108
Delano, CA 93216 USA
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